Ultra 72

The truth is, I'm lonely.

I'm always lonely. I could have all the friends in the world and never have any time where I'm alone and I would still be lonely.

I don't know why.

I've always been like this. I'm sorry.

I'm excessive. I'm obsessive. I'm compulsive. I'm extravagant. I'm boisterous. I'm aggressively kind. I'm aggressively rude. I'm aggressively existential.

I am existential in general.

I never care. Only about myself. I'm fake.

Again, I'm sorry.

I want to be normal, but who's to say exactly what defines normal. The masses. Why do I want to be a sheep? Because it's normal.

I want to be the leader. Always. I want to be in control. I've never not been in control... on purpose. I'm pushed down often. I never want to be a follower... on purpose.

I just want to be happy. I want people to be happy with me. I want a normal life, normal friends, normal experiences.

We'll start out tomorrow and see what happens.

- JWK